…then, one day in her auditing, she felt something. A kind of “flicker.” Was it a BT? She decided that it must be. Animmense feeling of relief washed over her. Soon after that, she discovered more BTs-eventually, hundreds thousands. Sometimes there was a feeling of lightness or of floating when the BT was expelled. Other times she exteriorized from her body. But the headaches remained. Then something new arrived: quarrelsome voices inside her head. At first the voices were faint, but they grew louder and louder and more insistent. She worried she was going insane…confided to Eltringham that she wanted to kill herself in order to stop the suppressive bodily thetans from taking over her mind…